kNOWiNG

just for the record- i love my boyfriend.

it's interesting how the more experiences you have, the more embittered you can get toward other people who haven't had any such experiences. especially when the experiences are the hardest things you've ever had to survive. and it's even worse when these people try to help you through it or say anything in regards to it other than agreeing that they've never been through anything like it.
and yet how is it at all okay to get bitter toward all of them...

they just don't know.

and often, i'm the one that doesn't know.

and sometimes i feel like i'm 50 years old, and i'll be 700 before i die.