the last two weeks.

im in the library. because i dont have internet at my house yet. im starting to relaize i dont mind very much. it keeps me focused on other things an people and off of facebook and email unless i walk to campus and schedule out the time. i think that's good for me.

im waiting for ryan to get off work. we both have second-shift-ish lives now so our hang out time usually starts at 11 pm. he works at 3 and i start class at 11 so we can stay up late and sleep in. but im almost always EXHAUSTED by the time we hang out so i fall asleep on couches, futons, etc. and leave him with a boring sleeping girlfriend to stare at for a while...

i auditioned for an opera class today, that may lead to being IN an opera. first one. 6 more hours of classes a week, and two more months of rehearsal, but it's my last year of educational theatre so im trying to milk it.

the postmodern class im taking is turning out to be really interesting. at first i thought it was going to be way too happy-christian for me, but the first day of discussion we brought up both sides of whether or not god really is behind every good thing that happens to us, as if he's just sitting up there waiting to give the white middleclass good family background christians more good things to feel "blessed" about. We do a lot of writing and there's little structure other than "write what you think," so i'm enjoying writing out many of my thoughts that i haven't put into words, and having a professor respect them and count them as valid next to everyone else's. i took a plunge and wrote about a very tough experience from a few years ago that i haven't even been able to address on this site, and found that it was really good for my healing process to share it in a more public environment than one-on-one with close friends. this class i think will be good for me.

and shakespeare has been my life recently. we're doing much ado about nothing in november, and ive been reviewing and memorizing monlogues and learning as much as i can about shakespeare in all the "free" time i have between 19 hours of classes, 15-20 hours of work, and 5-10 hours of homework a week.

i really love living with my roommates, but i can't really afford where im living. that could be a problem.