mu-zak

do your homework while listening to rusted root.
think about it.

blurbs?

it was 70 + degrees outside today.
and there was an earthquake.
5.2 on the richter scale
and i was in a show that changed people's lives
followed by a drink that tasted like sugary toothpaste
and i said inconsiderate things to someone i care about immensely
not in that order.
i talked to my big brother for 53 minutes
told him why i've fallen so hard for this boy i know
he said he's voting for tom hanks for president
write-in ballot
i agreed.
too much homework for a show-opening weekend
i spend my time studying wars and genocide
and interviewing baristas to work in our coffee shop.

and sitting outside on the ground on the phone laughing about doing everything wrong.

i need to call my parents and tell them about the earthquake.

a mood?

in such a funk
i don't know what does this to me
busy days, i think
maybe because my busiest days are spent alone
im around people the whole time
from one event to job to meeting to class to lesson to rehearsal to the next
but nothing follows me consistently through the day
except myself
and the list of things i still haven't done
so that's kind of alone

trying to learn how to let people in
it's hard and i don't really like it
but who likes things that are hard?

unless it's something youre extremely passionate about i guess
so get passionate
geez.

"Lies and promises for $10 an hour"

Here at anderson university the next play that opens up is called Living Out by Lisa Loomer. We open on Thursday. It's neat to find modern shows that have purpose and relevance and not just humor and sex. All eight characters in this one are split into two ethnicities: white-wealthy-suburban anglos and immigrant-now-working-for-the-anglos hispanics. When I first read the script, I thought it was great that we were doing a show about race issues, but I didn't think it had much relevance to this area or anyone who would see it. Then we saw a film on campus about immigration, and it explained that yes, the largest rise in ethnicity in the U.S. over the last 5 years has been Hispanic. And also, the region that experienced the most drastic increase is the MidWest. And also, the state that experienced the most dratic increase in the MidWest is Indiana.
...so apparently this is extremely relevant.
In Indianapolis, a very on-the-edge theatre called the Phoenix Theatre now hires multi-lingual actors and provides performances of relevant shows in English and other nights in Spanish. I wish we were able to do this show with this cast closer to the metropolis (booming... I know ; ) to reach more of the audience (Anglo and Hispanic) that this show applies to. And hopefully, the community even here in little Anderson can realize that although this play takes place in L.A., whether they venture to a bigger city or stay in Indiana, these are topics that they will need to address, and hopefully learn from this play the importance of understanding, acceptance, and equality.

Oh, and yes, I play one of the Anglo moms. Mother of twin boys. Slightly frantic. Who loves them dearly in spite of how often she has to take one or both of them to the emergency room.

Dates for the shows are Thurs-Sat for two weekends: April 17, 18, 19 and 24, 25, 26 at 7:30 pm.
Tickets are $5 for students, $12 for adults, and $10 for senior/military.

Let's do more theatre like this...

to a friend

thank you for noticing. i thought i was good at hiding. but this time i wasn't trying very hard.
i also wasn't trying to get caught. i'm just tired of choosing a face and wearing it all day.
so who knows what'll come out...

be loud. let your colorshow.

one person. years. flinched every time someone teased or jeered me for being too loud. for talking too much. no one's ever not laughed. or noticed. it's the funny thing. she's loud. she talks all the time. she talks too fast. her stories are long and boring. and it's funny, remember?

i got used to it.

but he never did. and he never laughed.

.smile.

melancholy morning

i have to go make a very large schedule. and email lots of people. and schedule the minutes that are not yet scheduled this week. and any minutes left over= phone life. i'd still rather be on the phone with you than be next to anyone else.

i slept for twelve hours last night. instead of doing any of the above things that i needed to be doing. my ability to neglect duties is becoming quite fascinating.

auditioned for a summer-stock theatre this weekend. whole season, or maybe just a show or two. this summer may end up being VERY good.

i really really miss amanda graanstra. in case you were wondering. i had a number one best friend one time. that was a girl. it was good to my soul.

in case you were wondering...

hummus is really yummy.
i make my coffee really sweet.
unless i'm eating it with something else sweet.
my feet usually smell.
i keep everything, waiting for that one time when someone says, "well, does anyone have ____?"
and i can say yes.
i sleep with a teddy bear. the same one for seven years. call me old fashioned when it comes to intimacy.
i drink soy milk from the carton.
meals that consist of only one thing bore me to tears.
i don't generally know how to use televisions.
im irrationally afraid of thunderstorms.
i was 50 feet away from a bolt of lightning on monday.
i have this thing with falling asleep on couches.
guitar music puts me to sleep.
especially when im on a couch.
i relive most of my memories in my head when i get bored so i can pull up the real feelings when im acting.
that gives me a bizarre relationship with my emotions.
i don't want to finish college.
i'm most likely going to finish college.
im allergic to nickel.
the metal, not the coin.
i think.
mid-california has what i consider to be the perfect climate.
if you tell me something, i'll most likely remember what i was looking at when you told me.
vanilla is for wimps.
so are shoes.
if you're talking to me and a train goes by, or the sound of one, don't be offended. i'll pay attention again in a minute or two.