a mood?

in such a funk
i don't know what does this to me
busy days, i think
maybe because my busiest days are spent alone
im around people the whole time
from one event to job to meeting to class to lesson to rehearsal to the next
but nothing follows me consistently through the day
except myself
and the list of things i still haven't done
so that's kind of alone

trying to learn how to let people in
it's hard and i don't really like it
but who likes things that are hard?

unless it's something youre extremely passionate about i guess
so get passionate
geez.