thoughts from the desert

i climbed a mountain today. just a little one. people back home make fun of my love of climbing. with isaiah, it's just what you do. some of my friends see a mountain and they think 'wow thats a big mountain.' i see it and think 'i would love to climb that.' isaiah sees it and thinks 'what else is that mountain there for but for us to climb?' yeah. i love my brother. let me describe a flash of my day today:
the sun is beginning to set, but barely- just enough for the rocks and cacti to make shadows. everything is light browns- the rocks, the hills (made of rocks), the ground (made of crushed rocks), the wispy plants, even the sunlight has a shiny brown feel to it.
the paved roads wind through this desert park area. the shadow of a motorcycle flies across the ground next to the road. the shadow shows two other figures, one bent forward into the wind with the outlines of his jacket and sunglasses visible, the other leaning slightly back- one arm looped through the visor of an un-used helmet resting on her leg. looking into the shadow, the only thing that keeps moving is the hair flying straight out behind her. mountains slowly rise on either side of the valley. the valley of the sun.

it's nice to be out of pennsylvania.

oh boy. something crazy just happened. more later...

traveling.

don't be afraid to fall in love.
with a person, a thing, an idea.
fall in love with something. love it out. passion it out.
and then leave before it gets shitty.
because it always does.
everything wonderful and exciting after a while gets old and doesnt mean as much anymore.
leave before it gets to that point.
that's when it hurts the most to leave, but that's when you'll keep the best memory of it.

-words from someone who means way more to me than he will ever know- one of my many (nonbiological) big brothers. i dont think i agree completely, but it's something to think about.

an update...

well for anyone who actually reads this thing- i guess a little bit of an update is in store. i'm doing okay. not amazing, butnot terriby either. i am super busy (surprise) but i REALLY like most of the things i;m busy with. i got parts in the next two shows here at au- the first is the part of a 20 something chain smoker NYC chick who is terrible at relationships in a story about four women consoling one of them over the death of her husband. it's amazing- i've never really been coached in a play, and i'm learning so much. not to mention the cast is made up of three amazing other girls. the second show is a series of one acts- the one act that i'm in was written by a girl on campus and is a woman and her fiancee talking in the middle of the night. haha so i smoke in one and spend most of the second one in bed. come out and see them! oh, and because of the class i'm in, i'm building and designing other parts of shows and sets, so with all that plus the fact that i actually am employed at the theatre, i'm basically there most of the time. so if you havent seen me around lately, that's why. but i love it. i have to remind myself that there are other requirements of me... like homework and food.

also, i interviewed for and was offered a position as an RA, but i realized that with theatre next year there is no way i would be able to be in the hall enough to be there for my girls... so i didnt take the spot. i want to do it sooo bad... it tore my heart out to turn it down. but when your major is a lot of evening requirements, things like being an RA unfortunately get pushed out of the question. sad. so now i'm trying to figure out what i'm doing this summer- i'm looking into a bunch of different internships- theatre, ministry, and some au stuff. who knows. i just dont want to sit at home for three months. sorry meadville kids. i want to use my summers to try out other things to see what i want to do eventually... because i still dont really know.

im headed to phoenix for the first half of spring break (march 10- the day after my birthday- through march 15, when i'm flying back to pittsburgh (!!) and going home for the last few days) to see my brother. i LOVE him so much. like, i dont think i can explain to you how much i love that boy. he means so much to me- he is the best at being a big brother. justin is gonna maybe come up from uma to see us, and isaiah's trying to plan a motorcycle trip to see the grand canyon!!!!! he's taking a day or two off of work and school, basically it is going to be amazing, and i will be there exactly one week from right now!

anyway, those are the outside things... maybe later i'll get into some of the inside things. but i'm okay for now. okay. i love you all.