honesty (not mine)

i had a really good. real. conversation the other day. with my boyfriend. he's all i talk about on this thing.
he realized something about me. and told me. and i tried very hard not to get defensive. which was part of the whole idea. i learned a lot. because he is one of the only people i have EVER met who can be honest with people he cares about and does it well... and is right.

i don't know if i want to change. and that terrifies me.
i think i would change it for him before i would change it for myself.
that sounds unhealthy.
which unhealthy is worse.

that seems like most of the decisions i'm making lately... choose the best of a few bad options.


i'm only taking 12 hours of classes this semester. that feels really good.