four score and seven turtles ago...

whoa. man im good at this.

i hate doing these updates, i feel like they're so selfish, thinking that everyone is THAT interested in your life. well for those of you who have ever taken a peek at this, here is your latest update.

sophomore year of college. miles better than freshman. not depressed, not sorting through life and myself and who i was vs. wanted to be vs. let myself be vs. never thought i could... all that jazz. well, a little bit of that, but it's much happier now. lots of theatre and music classes, got a ton of my liberal arts done last year. i was in all three shows at school this semester: a musical (carousel), a modern greek tragedy (women of lockerbie), and an original work by an AU senior (elegy). always in rehearsal, all semester, but i loved it. and whenever i wasnt in rehearsal, i was with this one kid.... who is now my daa da da daaaaa: boyfriend. that's been an interesting ride. it's been a long time since i did the boyfriend thing. but he's worth it. i got a southern boy... they make 'em different down there :-). nothing against northern boys... haha but he never has to wait for me. because im always late, but he's later. and it is good to my soul. schoolwise, next semester= more of the same. theatre and music classes, only potentially one show instead of three, but lots of hours in the theatre nonetheless. actual method training. im excited. and ACTF (acting competition) in milwaukee in two weeks. i have no idea what to expect with that, but im really looking forward to it. compete with a scene and a partner and then attend workshops and such for the rest of the week. im trying to enjoy every bit of this whole school year- before i have to go back to the liberal arts schedule.

my family is in the process of moving to pittsburgh... finally i know. my dad has a job down there already- he works there during the week and comes home on the weekends. im not really around to experience it. so apparently i'll have a room in the new house, but i dont imagine i'll be "living" there much. not many more times i'll be home for much more than a visit. as soon as the meadville house sells, we'll pretty much be out of there. i've never moved before, other than taking half my stuff to college. i mean, people do it all the time, but i've only had one house that ever had my family AND meant home. as long as i can go back to the neighborhood and walk through the woods sometimes, even when i grow up. the house will belong to someone else, become someone else's "home," but back in those woods hadnt changed since i was little, and im counting on it to stay the same for a long time to come. country girl or not, that was the one place i could leave my house, without a car, and be alone to read or think or laugh or sing... i sang back there a lot. because i could sing as loud as i wanted and no one would hear or shush me or even tell me to keep singing... i could just sing. moving will be ok, because i still know how to get back there.

otherwise... im at an interesting type of moving standstill. standstill because nothing huge is changing (haha by my terms of change that is- i guess those things i just talked about would be pretty big changes for some people). where i am and i guess who i am has become fairly... stable? for the time being. but im still living, still moving, still changing every day in the midst of that stability. i guess that makes it sound pretty good. it is. better than last year. worse than some good times past. but altogheter good.

how's that for an update? sorry that my posts ound like i'm trying to have an awkward conversation with you. i'll work on that.