wow...

okay so i realize it's been over six months since i wrote a blog- can you tell how much i LOVE my computer at home?? but now i have a laptop and a college to plug it into so here we go i guess. i seriously have no idea if anyone ever read this in the first place, like everyone always says in their online journal things...but maybe i'll just give people the url and keep them updated about college. eh- i'm sure i'll end up rambling about stuff that means the world to me and nobody else really cares about so they'd probably get bored. oh well.
i was skimming over some of my old entries and just kind of laughing. usually looking back over a period of time you can actually see growth or change...and i feel like yeah sure in the last six months i've changed a lot, but i think i've changed evenmore in the last two months, in the last two weeks. life can be totally crazy. i seriously don't know how people get through it without a god that loves them so much that when they can not turn to a singe soul they can cry out to him and know that he already knows and loves them anyway, and will sit and listen as they get it all off their chest, and will stick right with them every moment of every day until they are completely healed...and even forever after. ugh. how do people do it?
so i'm moving into college tomorrow. i'm sitting on a hotel room floor in anderson indiana typing on my computer by the light coming from the bathroom- classy, i know. my mum and her sister are sleeping in the beds and i don't want to disurb them. i'm nice like that. haha yeah. for any of you who don't know and are actually reading this: i'm going to anderson university (in indiana, obviously) and planning to study theatre and bible. i figured if i'm going to spend that much money on an education, why not go for what i love so that even if i'm poor- i'll be somewhat happy. besides- a message from god saying 'tell the world about me' and a love for theatre and some awesome experiences (not to mention financial bonuses) from AU will put you right about where i am. a hotel floor haha. no- i'm really excited. it's something different than meadville pennsylvania (which, believe me, doesn't say much). besides, some pretty crazy stuff was going on before i left, and it's nice to be able to leave it all behind. it might still be there when i get back- but it's being worked through while i'm gone. god knows what's going on- he never wastes a hurt. superchic(k) says it best: beauty from pain. buy the cd. it's amazing. yeah- lots of things have changed for me and in me lately...someday i'll bore you with all of those details. for now i'm going to go put my pajamas on and get my last night's sleep before i offiicially become a college student.
whoever may possibly be reading this- i love you.

-me