day. week. month. year.

im moving out of college this week. to an apartment down a few streets. i get to really be a grownup now. money and food and transportation and responsibilities and nobody really telling me what to do. funny. thats what people expect to find when they go to college in the first place. i'll be in anderson taking classes until june 2nd-ish then im moving to indianapolis to intern in worship and drama at church at the crossing for june and july. i may not be home until august. weird. but im strangely excited about it. its an adventure. and i never really liked meadville. in case you didnt notice.

we had our 'academy awards' for the theatre department tonight, and i was told that the adjudicators who came to moonlight and valentino had nominated me as one of two (out of the four amazing girls in that cast) to receive an irene ryan award and now i get to compete in illinois in january at a week long theatre conference with ACTF. also, someone whose theatre work i admire very much is interested in being the "partner" i need to choose to help me compete... it was an honor to me just for him to be interested. wow. interesting day.

my days are so long. not necessarily long and tiresome, just LONG. ifeel like ive lived through six months in the last two weeks. three weeks in the last three days. it's monday. saturday night the world fell apart, sunday i felt like i was dealing with a death, and now its monday. except all of that feels so long ago.

i have so much i need to do- and absolutely no motivation to do it. my best friend is leaving. for a long time if not for good. we've literally spent every day together since at least spring break, and our relational levels keep growing and changing with every 78 hour day. but she's leaving anderson for home or mission year or maybe something else. i dont know if i can say goodbye. i dont make close friends well, and i keep them even worse. this is trying everything i have in me. only a few more days. and i feel like so much has to happen in them. well, if each day continues to last upwards of 80 hours, then we should be okay.