sorry if i scared you... no im not.

where are you? why wont you answer me? why have i felt like im going through all of this alone? im trying to include you, but i cant find you to even ask. im angry. im angry that it has hurt for so long, and you wont even prove to me that youre here. or there. or anywhere. i know that youre somewhere waiting. well, i gave up on myself and life to try to find you today... and i couldnt. you were elusive. i was running after you (almost literally) and it felt like you were running away from me. you werent. i know that. i know that youre everywhere, all the time. my head knows that. but my heart wont believe it. apparently that's my big problem- im letting my heart take over and not using my mind. talking about things i feel, not that i know. well, try and convince yourself of something that your heart will not agree to know. just try.