we don't always have to understand

well christmas break is gone. my last one in high school. rock on. but these next 6 months are going to be soooo long. everyone keeps assuming that hey i'm a senior- i'm almost done- it'll go so fast. not at the rate things are going now. if i keep up my losing streak (like physically losing possessions...in this case, homework) then this semester will be much longer than even i anticipated. and i keep realizing that a bunch of scholarship stuff probably should have been taken care of before break...and now it may be too late. darn letters of recommendation. who needs to be recommended for a scholarship? no just kidding, but my procrastination has really paid off...or not paid in this case. wow okay so enough with the bad puns. my philosophical thought of the day....boys. what's up with them? i just don't understand. but i guess they don't really understand us either. whoever tries to pull the whole 'we're created the same but society raises us differently and instills different values and expectations and ruins our true identity' crap needs to just go observe a guy and a girl together and read their thoughts. definitely different wavelengths going on or something. spaghetti vs. waffles hahaha. i think that of all the areas we struggle with in seeking god, the most prevalent and distorted one is that which concerns the opposite sex. i know i rambled on for way too long about that in an earlier entry but i just keep being reminded of it. and it's something that i struggle with....more of a "god what on earth are you doing??" but he's got it under control. we're here on the lower stage, he's up in the upper stage and he has all kinds of thing going on. so i'll just try to be patient and wait to see how everything fits together. but what really matters i guess is what you do in the meantime. sitting around and waiting for things to 'come together' will accomplish nothing for the kingdom of god and leave you pretty bored as well. but hey, time flies when you're...busy. well that's my version of the cliche but it's true. so now is the time to just get out there and ACCOMPLISH something. not like this break when the most ministry i did was arriving almost late for a service i was supposed to lead worship for. well i hope somebody was blessed by this weekend's music....i felt a little jipped because playing for all three services robs me of my own in-service worship time (believe me- it's not the worship time for the worship leaders when they're up on stage...they're there to lead you). i'll just have to make it up this week on my own :-) anyway...yeah, doing something. high school makes that so hard. i've realized that if i spent as much time each day reading my bible and hanging out with god as i did complaining/worrying about homework (not doing homework...time used for that is basically nonexistent), not only would i be much more relaxed (and actually do the homework rather than wigging out about it) but i would get so much more done (homework or otherwise). i would in essence have more time. or at least allow god to show me how to use it more wisely. it's like tithing....it doesn't quite make sense in our minds for us to give 10 percent of all the money we get to his awesome plan, in order to live better. wouldn't we live better on 100 percent than 90? but god doesn't think like we do, and he's the one who created this world and decided how it would work. so if he says, "yes- i know it sounds weird but trust me...give 10 percent of the money you get to my perfect plan of telling the world how much i love them, and you will live better on the 90 percent than you would ever have lived on the 100 percent!" now i don't have an income to speak of...maybe i'm a bad witness to all of this but whether it's physical money or not...if god promises you you're gonna live better, you'll live better! maybe it'll just be your job conditions. or (because anyone who's reading this (if anyone reads this...) probably isn't in the 'work force' yet, maybe it'll just be a clearer approach toward schooling, or finding christian friends that will love and support you. god's pretty creative (he made the world...that had to take some imagination) and he loves to bless us, so put those two things together and wham-o --cool blessings. and that's what it's all about. showing god how much you love him by trusting him with things you don't understand, and giving him all kinds of praise when he comes through and holds up to his promises (because you know he will). i don't know about you...but that's the kind of god i serve. so how i got here from complaining about the male race i have no idea, but hey, god works in mysterious ways *winkwink*. so, have a great week-- high schoolers going back to school and collegers with one more week of freedom. and if you have time, watch napoleon dynamite because it's hysterical (and if you're confused, don't worry- it's not supposed to have a plot).
oh and by the way...i still think boys are weird ;-)