in the beginning

isn't it amazing how you can feel inspired and totally shot down at the exact same time? ok well maybe that's just what it's like to serve christ and actually try to grow. well needless to say i've been shot down. but it inspired me, so here i am. i guess you could say i'm trying to reprioritize...again. it's so easy to fool yourself into believing that you are serving god and things are great and you've got them under control and hey by the way i'm cooler than you because i read my bible today... what a load of garbage. satan uses complacency to catch us off guard. and pride. in a 'personal relationship with jesus christ' it's so easy to get caught up in the personal part...and forget about the world around you. that's why we're here anyway- to show god how much we love him but also to share the awesome truth we have found about the creator of the entire universe! and yet we (i) still manage to put him in a box and focus more on myself. but from this moment on, i won't be caught sleeping. serving god is an every day every minute thing, but it pays off more than we could ever imagine later on. i just try to remind myself "that's not what it's about." i'm so easily distracted and i lose focus at the blink of an eye. luckily, i have newfound 'inspiration' to stay on track. i like to call it god, but it comes disguised in all forms.
well i guess you could say that's 'my' introduction....simply a girl trying to stay on the lord's path (he created the world...i think he has a little better of an idea on how to do things than my pathetic attempts) and to keep myself far away from the burning sun.

"soaring on the wings of selfish pride, i flew too high, and like icharus i collide with a world i try so hard to leave behind."